Wednesday, September 18, 2019

“Forgiveness and Peace at the Feet of the Lord” by Beth DeCristofaro



“Forgiveness and Peace at the Feet of the Lord” by Beth DeCristofaro


Beloved: Let no one have contempt for your youth, but set an example for those who believe, in speech, conduct, love, faith, and purity. (1 Timothy 4:12)

Now there was a sinful woman in the city who learned that he was at table in the house of the Pharisee. Bringing an alabaster flask of ointment, she stood behind him at his feet weeping and began to bathe his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them, and anointed them with the ointment. (Luke 7:37-38)

Piety
All that God wills, I will.
With wings of good intention,
I fly the dome of the sky
to accomplish the will of God in all.
        (Hildegard of Bingen)[i]

Study
Probably most of us who are parents harbor regrets. We know that we have let our children down because we were selfish, misguided, overly strict or neglectful, just plain tired or cranky. Probably most of us who are employed are frustrated at times whether we feel we aren’t doing the best job we can. Or we are injuring our families by over-working. Or we have compromised our ethics to keep employment which affords us the lifestyle we desire. Are we worried that we aren’t good Catholics because we have missed Mass? Or let our children opt out of religious education? Or have we not been an active parish member? Or are angry at clergy and refuse to compromise. It’s helpful to be at least aware of what causes our inner turmoil because if we are willing to allow, God can help us untangle it.

The sinful woman was very aware of her sin. She was publicly a sinner; however, Luke did not report her given name, so she becomes EveryWoman/Man for us. In this Gospel, she braved further public humiliation by her actions – entering the house of an upright man who judges her.  The sinful woman approached the rabbi with an intimate, scandalous act and used expensive oils. Through her awareness – and rejection - of her sin and her great need for forgiveness, she put her damaged identity and false desires aside.  She knelt before Jesus, recognizing in him the spirit of God’s overwhelming mercy.

Buddhism identifies that life is “dukkha,” translated as suffering yet with the characteristics of restlessness, due to awareness of potential loss or pain. St. Ignatius recognized further that our spirits are restless until they rest in God. When my mind games of “dukkha” trap me,  I and those around me are often miserable. Hildegard’s prayer-poem is so relevant. How often I have lofty ideals which are not met and then I beat myself up for the failure – or take it out on others in my life. The sinful woman entered Simon’s house “with wings of good intention,” not sure of the outcome but wanting surcease of her pain and cleansing of her soul. Jesus embraced her.

Action
Why do I, like Simeon, see sin in others so much quicker than seeing my own sin?  What keeps me from braving humiliation or rejection and laying my own impermanent desires at God’s feet, and asking for mercy?  Jesus said to the sinful woman and he says to me:  "Your faith has saved you; go in peace." (Luke 7:50)  


Image credit:  Mary Washing Jesus’ Feet, by Soichi Watanabe, is from For the Least of These: The Art of Soichi Watanabe(New Haven, Conn.: OMSC Publications, 2010), 75; oil on canvas, 7 × 9 in., 2006

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